"the inside story" on this site's inspiration

I'm not sure how I can begin this, so, I will do my best. First of all, I was a devoted christian who worked with the student ministry at Istrouma Baptist every Wednesday night & most events. But, it all started to come to an end with me in 11/00, but just didn't know it. I moved in with one of my brothers to help take care of our aunt who was slowly dying. So, because of that, I signed up with a now defunct temp staffer so I could work on the days my brother was off. After about 6 months the pressure and stress of taking care of my aunt @ night and working in the mornings and lack of sleep was starting to 'inject a lethal dose of poison deep within my soul. I managed to hold on to my faith for a couple months afterwards by staying in touch with friends and working with the student ministry. But, after a while that stopped because I had to start stay home from church more and more until I didn't go at all. After about 6 weeks of not even being in a church, my faith was starting to shatter so much, I stopped listening to Christian music and started listening to everything from Eminem to Cypress Hill to ICP. This didn't affect my lifestyle too much at first, but, soon afterwards, I started snapping at everyone, even at work until they asked me not to come back. So, that just knocked me down even more. But something happened early December that caught me off guard. My older brother, Allen called and told me that not only were all of them coming that Christmas, but, that a particular 11 year old, blonde haired boy was really anxious to see his Uncle Calvin again after 2 years. When I heard that, I was scared to let them see what I have become. But, when they got here a few days before Christmas I slowly realized that I was a bigger influence on David then I thought. Anyway, we played games, watched TV, and just enjoying our time together. While doing that, he help me find out who I really was. By the time they left on the 28th he had unknowingly helped restore my faith and encouraged me to get rid of alot of items including ALL the cds I mentioned above. Jump ahead to June '03, my mother is scheduled to have a quaduple heart by-pass. And Allen sent his wife and oldest son, Allen, Jr. down here to help out for a couple weeks, but it turned out the morning they were going to leave, they noticed their van had a oil leak so they sent David down as well at the last minute. They say it was just a coinencidence that the van started acting up, but I later realized that it was a sign from the Lord to give me a helping hand once more. During those 2 weeks, David, encouraged me to hold on to my current job until I found something better. Plus, both of us realized that we have more things in common than we knew and by the end of the 2 weeks, we were closer to each other than we ever dreamed we would be. During those 2 weeks, we did just about everything together, yardwork, cleaning the house, watch movies, he even came to work with me a few times, which he really enjoyed, (most probably because he was with me, but I'm not sure), But eversince they went home, we have kept in touch with each other just about every week. But, he left something behind with me that I can NEVER repay him for. * This part is hard for me to admit*, but here it goes. I'm 28 years old and thanks to David, for the first time, I have some long-term plans to look forward to, and I have more self-confidence in myself than ever before. So, for that, I owe him more than I can EVER repay him for, now matter how much I try. Now,Jump ahead to January '04, My mom and I visited our former church, Lanier Baptist, to hear Michael Ferguson, Sr., a family friend preach. And after the service, almost out of no where The Lord started working in my life again by asking me if I would be interested in helping with their Student Ministry, in helping it grow again and add Momentum to it. I told him I would prayfully consider it. To make a long story short, as of 2/8/04, I am a member of Lanier Baptist Church and working with Ms. Kay Stacey with the Student Ministry every week. And, I truely believe this is where the Lord wants me and I have not only The Lord to thank for this opportumity, but David for having faith in me and his constant love and encouragement.